The next hour or so is going to be very tricky but I simply have to attempt to hold my nerve after another difficult night.  Maureen has been up several times since we went to bed which is rather surprising after a busy day without any siestas.  She has been frightened during the night by her fears that there are animals in the house.  It has taken a lot of reassurance to get her back to sleep.

My coach leaves for Coventry just after 7 am and it is tempting to change my plans.  It wouldn’t be the first time I have postponed or cancelled visits to see my family but this time I need to keep to stay strong. Maureen will be well cared for in my absence and her son will be with her for a significant part of the day.  If I back off now my plans to develop a life of my own alongside being a care partner will be in tatters and the support I have received from professional staff will have been wasted.

As I finish this post I just wonder if it is worth trying to tempt Maureen to come with me and travel to Coventry by car.  I just wonder if I’m losing my nerve already or if this is a viable option?

Great news: what a brave wife I have we’re off together shortly!